The Challenges

Clarity Journal

Dear reader,

Allow me to reintroduce myself:

My name is Roscoe.

If you’re new to this journal, let me start by telling you this:

I'm approaching three and a half years sober, meaning I have not used any drugs or drunk any alcohol during this time, and my aim is to help you to achieve this too.

Prior to sobriety, I was an “alcoholic”

I started drinking alcohol at the age of 13, however, I really ramped it up when I was 16/17.

By the age of 20, I was partying every weekend, drugs had entered the equation and people were starting to get concerned.

Then at 21, I lost my Mum to cancer (I'm in my late 30s now) and this loss formed a deeper destructive relationship with booze, among other things, and I “went off the rails”.

Now, before I continue, I must point out that my going “off the rails” may be different to yours. In fact, my whole experience with drink and drugs may be different, BUT what I experienced along with the thoughts, the emotions and the feelings, will likely resonate with most.

After losing my Mum, I bottled up those thoughts, emotions and feelings and began to drink more and more, until over a decade later, I nearly took my own life.

For more insights into that, subscribe to the Chaos Journals where I will open up further about the suicidal thoughts, and the darkness and depression drinking dragged me into plus the things I’ve touched upon above:

Thankfully, I was saved from the hellish nightmare I was in, and although it took me one more attempt to get where I am now, I finally managed to get sober.

More on that another time.

Current sobriety and 90-day challenges

Now that I’ve given you a brief outline of my “drinking career”, I want to switch gears slightly and discuss my current sobriety.

And make a couple of important announcements.

So, as I close in on three and a half years of sobriety, I’ve recently begun assessing my sobriety journey; where I am now, what is working & what isn’t and changes I need to make in order to improve my life.

Before I do that, let me clarify something with you, loyal reader.

Without my sobriety, I would surely be dead.

I don’t say that lightly.

One thing that I’ve always said is that being sober has given me clarity. And it is with that clarity I can acknowledge where things aren’t working out for me.

I’m not afraid to face my demons anymore. I have been, believe me. But the further my sobriety journey takes me, the more I realise that I have nothing to be fearful of. I’ve faced my hardest challenge in getting sober, I’ve tackled some things over these three-plus years that would’ve led me to a drink before and I know I can face tougher challenges in the future without reaching back for the bottle.

So it is with this clarity that I am going to make some announcements, both are hard for me as they take me out of my comfort zone - but I know that is what I need to do in order to regain control over my life and get better, healthier and happier.

Announcement one

I’ve alluded to this in past editions of the newsletter but I am going to be even more open and honest with you; 1) in the hopes to gain some accountability for myself and 2) in the hopes that I inspire you.

I am fat. I am out of shape.

I have put on unwanted weight and I want it gone, now!

Phew, there we go, I’ve said it.

Over the next 90 days, I will be attempting the Warrior Monk program designed by my friend Jack and I’m going to document my progress with you here.

Before I begin though, over the next couple of days I am going to go one step further and reveal my weight, measurements and maybe even some photos in order for you to see my progress.

I’m a little embarrassed, to be honest, but I need to do this. I have to do this.

I may have quit drinking booze and taking drugs but I have not been able to quit chocolate for a sustained period of time. I have not been able to string together enough exercise to make a difference and I have lacked energy (more on this in announcement two).

If you would like to join me on this journey, then sign up for the program and follow me as I go through it. The more people who join me, the better chance we (I) have of completing it and getting fitter.

Join me

Announcement two

The second announcement is intertwined with the first to some degree. As I mentioned, lack of energy is something I’ve really struggled with during my sobriety:

Lack of energy has led me to do no exercise 🔁 lack of exercise has led me to have no energy.

It’s a vicious cycle.

So I’ve made the decision to do something about it.

A 90-day challenge to run alongside my fitness journey.

This journey into Sexual Energy Mastery will hopefully enable me to regain my natural energy levels which have been depleted through poor choices, such as giving in to the emotion of desire.

I will follow the course designed by my friend Joseph as I look to rid myself of temptations that have lead to low energy levels, mood swings, depression and low-frequency emotions.

For 90 days, I am going to practice semen retention and document my journey.

This journey might not be for the weak-willed. It is going to be a hard one (no pun intended) but one I believe will benefit me and you so I encourage you to join me on this journey.

Join me

I will go into more detail over the coming days as I get ready to take on the challenge.

With this challenge, I will also be writing deeply personal entries in the chaos journal as there are so many links between my drinking days and the pursuit of lust, desire and the temptations of the party scene.

I feel it will be necessary to update the chaos journal to keep me on track with this 90-day challenge so sign up if you want to read those.


I will be starting these challenges in the next few days, I encourage you to join me if you want to improve your own fitness and up your energy levels.

My aim is to keep a daily log of my progress so expect a couple of emails in your inbox each day.

I am affiliating for both of these products on the agreement that I follow through with them as best I can and be honest with my journey and results.

I reached out to both Jack and Joseph with this idea as I really want to improve my life and offer you the chance to improve yours, and also because these two courses have been on my radar for some time now.

I have been through the Sexual Energy Mastery course from start to finish and the information blew my mind.

I am nervous to start but eager for the results as I believe they will help my life.

It is the same for the Warrior Monk program.

I have been part of Jack’s Fit For Manhood accountability community for some time now but I have been too scared to try the programs.

However, I now know that I need to pull the trigger on improving my fitness and health before it’s too late.

Again, I am nervous to get started and especially to share the journey with you, but I believe it is something that will improve my life.

Anyway, I hope you join me on these journies.

If you have any questions, then please contact me here or on Twitter.

Let’s do this.

Thank you for reading.

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